Lost?

Lost yourself before? Mentally I mean... Turning into someone else without yourself realizing it... Maybe for something precious, something important that you can never afford to lose... Maybe due to something that happened... CHANGED&LOST... When you finally realized, what can be done is not known...

"Lost in the end of the road, back to the beginning of the road" That's what a Malay idiom says... Think about it...

Carry You Home - James Blunt
Trouble is her only friend and he's back again
Makes her body older than it really is
And she says it's high time she went away
No ones got much to say in this town
Trouble is the only way is down, down, down

As strong as you were
Tender you go
I'm watching you breathing
For the last time
A song for your heart
But when it is quiet
I know what it means
And I'll carry you home
I'll carry you home

If she had wings she would fly away
And another day god will give her some
Trouble is the only way is down,down,down

As strong as you were
Tender you go
I'm watching you breathing for the last time
A song for your heart
But when it is quiet
I know what it means
I'll carry you home
I'll carry you home

And they're all born pretty
in New York City tonight
and someones little girl
was taken from the world tonight
under the Stars and Stripes

As strong as you were
Tender you go
I'm watching you breathing for the last time
A song for your heart
But when it is quiet
I know what it means
And I'll carry you home

As strong as you were
Tender you go
I'm watching you breathing for the last time
A song for your heart
But when it is quiet
I know what it means
And I'll carry you home

I'll carry you home



Aunty Amy said that the song's MV is touching... No idea... Check it out...

Batman The Dark Knight 蝙蝠侠 黑夜之神

No doubt, it is a fantastic movie... But no, I am not going to write review... Whoever out there haven't watch, go or regret... :-) And sorry, I am going to write in Chinese for this post...相信大家对蝙蝠侠的印象也不浅... 像我本身小时候就看过蝙蝠侠的卡通... 但蝙蝠侠一直都不是我最喜欢的超级英雄之一... 因为小时候毕竟对半夜跑出来吓人的有一点反感.... 但是看了这一套电影过后，我开始觉得蝙蝠侠比任何一个我认识的超级英雄更值得敬佩、更酷、更真实，但同时也更悲惨、更艰苦、更艰难...

与绝大部分超级英雄不同，蝙蝠侠并没有任何特殊的力量，他有的，是比平常人多的钱、勇气、能力与智慧... 是很值得我们学习的对象... 因为他跟“钢铁人”一样，都是凡人，但钢铁人是天才，我们之中，绝大多数 都不是天才吧? (或许我是...哈哈...) 所以最有机会成为的超级英雄，非蝙蝠侠莫属... 我最佩服蝙蝠侠的地方，就是他能忍辱负重，为了大众着想，而牺牲自己的声誉... 纵然自己是天大的好人，却必须背上坏人的名字，终日受人唾骂... 试想想，今天假如你家里一个花瓶被别人打烂了，可是家人每个却都说是你打烂的，那种滋味好受吗? 现在蝙蝠侠不但没有"打烂花瓶"，他甚至就是那个阻止别人打烂更多花瓶的人，他的“家人”更是他日夜想尽办法来保护的人... 你的家人大概不会赶你出门吧? 他的“家人”却从来都没有让他进过门... 不但如此，他还要承受心爱的人因为自己而死的悲痛，最信赖的朋友的背叛...可想而知，那不是常人所能忍受的...

蝙蝠侠的人际关系也是相当优秀，他能让这么多人帮他保守秘密，帮他工作，的确不容易...他的装备，亦是非常个性化，都是走“蝙蝠”路线... (废话!) 像下面两辆，就是酷到不行!!! 电单车还是从车中分出来的，型!!!

Batmobiles

这一集中蝙蝠侠的头号敌人---Joker 小丑... 他大概是蝙蝠侠一生最大的敌人，注定是与蝙蝠侠为敌... 小丑的演员已死，不禁让人感到可惜，毕竟他的演技可圈可点，值得我为他默哀一秒钟... Amen@Amitabha... Why so seriousssssss? “蝙蝠侠不是英雄，他是黑夜之神”

I salute you, Batman, the one and only, Dark Knight...

Aren't We Getting Too Ambitious?

Or maybe we are just too optimistic? Or maybe too confidence?
Mr. Anwar Ibrahim, apparently, is trying to be the Prime Minister of our country... Can he? Me myself is wishing to go oversea, especially Australia for my further studies... Can I? Mr.A is still waiting for his ex-ex, he is hoping to get her back... Can he? V wants to be someone important to Q... Can he? CQ are in at least 8 clubs in the school, still thinking they can handle... Can they? The man in the picture above is thinking that he can use the thing in the plastic... Can he? Ya, maybe put himself in... :-)

Maybe I have no right, and might not be right, to say the persons above (including myself), being too ambitious... And what's wrong being ambitious? We need ambitions, targets, hopes and more, to keep us going in life... But please , never never never bite off more than you can chew...If not, you are not only making yourself suffer, there are people who are suffering from your selfishness but yet without your knowledge... It can be personal, but when it is not, be wise, and don't be fishmongers...

My physics teacher always say, "Listen to old man's advice!" Yes, seek for old man's advice when you are still a noob... It doesn't harm you to listen... Ya, my physics teacher only asked us to listen, he never asked us to follow... Make the decision yourself...

And, yes, it is never too late to learn, but you might regret that you are learning too late...

That's all from me this week... By the way, I will be recommending a song every week... Though it might not concern anyone of you, but if you are free, just spend a few minutes and listen to TnT-so-called-good songs... Hope I am not getting too ambitious... Lolz... The song this week, is my all time favourite song... The singer is my idol, and this is live version, you will know why he is my idol if you listen to the song, no one can sing live so perfectly... Lolz... Anyway, it is personal... :-)

Your own ways to love...

Firstly, as I said before, I am not going to write posts that limit to certain people's understanding... Hence, it is not going to be personal for my weekly post... Hehe, I'd rather make it a discussion... And I am going to talk about couple love... Nothing to do with parental love and all that...What actually initiate me to write about this topic? There is this close friend of mine... Who I actually know not much about his relationships with girls... As we seldom talk about it... But still we talk a little... He once told me that, he is actually going after one girl that is elder than him... Someone that I don't know... Well, I prayed for him... But later on, when new members joined our community... He starts to pay attention to one of them... This is the conversation between us after that...

Me: Ohh, who is that? Falling into a new girl already huh?
He: No lah... Actually there are two of them... One in here, another one in KL... The KL one I have more confidence... This one cannot...

I don't know about others, I thought we should always loyal to the one we love... No matter the relationship is started or not... Or maybe I'm wrong? So people can actually have a few targets at the same time? There is also another female friend of mine... Her ex-boyfriend starts another relationship with another girl right after breaking up with her... So even when you are in relationship with others, you can still actually have targets huh? Wakarimasen...

Let's talk about another friend of mine, Mr. A... (Suddenly realize I have many friends, lolz...) He broke up with his ex about one year before he starts another relationship with my friend, Miss B... They were alright until one day actually Mr. A met his ex with another boy... He feels painful in the heart, he said... Then later, he broke up with Miss B, claiming that it is not fair for her when he still got another girl in his heart... When the first time he told me, I said that it is normal to feel painful, this is just aftermath... And I even scolded him stupid, as Miss B is my friend as well, she is quite a good girl... Months later, our conversation...

Me: New girls coming in wor, got target?
A : No lah, you also know I got mine d lah...
Me: Your ex-ex? Still belum mati hati? I thought you said she got new boy friend d?
A : Ya lah, but I will wait lah...
Me: Wait? Later people get married leh?
A : Wait until they divorce...

Who do you think is stupid now?

There are so many ways to love actually, it is personal, I am not saying this is right or this is wrong... There is no right or wrong in love... It all depends on yourself...

Lets assume my blog actually got readers, what do you all think? Comment please, thank you.. I would like more opinions on this...

Why 'R3b0rN'? Why 'oF'? Why '麒麟'? Why 'ColdGodTnT'?

Why '麒麟'?
Ok... I don't think many people know about this... Why am I using this complicated Chinese phrase as the title of my blog twice? How is it related to me? Well, for those who don't know... My new Chinese name pronounces as 'qi lin' ('奇霖')... Which sounds exactly the same as the two words above in my title... The meaning of 麒麟 is actually a holy creature in Chinese myth... English known as Qilin which is directly translated from Mandarin while Kylin for Japanese and Kirin for Korean... Qilin is believed to be a good omen that brings serenity and prosperity... This chimerical creature is said to be a punisher, that punishes only the wicked...
Still cant get why i chose it? Other than the name part, it is mainly because it symbolizes strong and excellent characteristics... On which are what we should be aiming after... And moreover, it is COOOOOOL!

Why 'oF'?
Because it sounds right grammatically... HAHAHA...

Why 'R3b0rN'?
For noobs, R3b0rN=Reborn... Firstly it is because of the new blog... New environment... New background... Everything's new... Hence, it is like a reborn... Other than that, it is about a latest discovery of mine... That I am not good enough... For those who don't know Chinese, sorry, you probably will never understand what I am going to tell... As in my previous blog, my blog title is about Qilin swimming in a pool... Which actually signify that I am "终非池中物"... Outstanding in short... But lately I found out that those pros, those goods, those advantages, those excellence I once discover about myself... Are just too insignificant... Way, way, way too far from what and who I should be and achieve in the future... Hence, time to change n REBORN... I am currently trying to actually make my life more well-arranged... Just hope it works for the sake of everything... Amen@Amitabha....

Why 'ColdGodTnT'?
It is not in the title but the url of my blog... Weird huh? This should be seperated into "Why Cold?" "Why God?" "Why TnT?"... These three are actually my names in several fields... Nick names actually... Cold, comes from 'Cold Prince'... Which is created by one of my best friends Jinn Shian, JPA scholar in Russia... Believe me that he is not praising me actually... It is all about my jokes and style of talking... In Chinese, we actually name lame jokes as cold jokes... 冷笑话... So maybe I am Lame Prince... Haha... Whatever... Next, why God? It has nothing to do with Christianity, since I am a free thinker... It is a name that i created few years back while I was playing a MMORPG (Massive Multiplayer Online Role Playing Game) named Ragnarok Online, I like the character Hunter pretty much... Which leads me to use the name 'God of Hunt'... Was just trying to be the best...Hehe... I like this name because it is COOL... So i keep it in the combination... Then, TnT... Why TnT? This is not a new question actually... As I have been using this name as my display name for N years d... But why? There are several reasons... Just wanna tell a few of them here... The first one would be because of several idols of mine have their name start with the alphabet 'T'... e.g. Thiery Henry, Terry Lin... And my English name which I started using since I was still a kid , which is also self-created... Is Tommy... (Though somebody is complaining it sounds like kid's name... XD)Then, the next reason is probably because it looks like a sad emoticon, like someone crying, it suits my feeling while i created this nickz... Then then, TNT is actually TriNitroTouluene... A type of dynamite... Sounds COOL... And in addition I am a science student... Doesn't it make sense that I have a scientific name ? Lolz... And especially people actually name me after Touluene(Methylbenzene) during Chemistry class... So, how can I not use this name when there are actually so many reasons to support? There are more actually, not going to tell though... :-)

The Return of a Blogger...

Read some blogs today... Which inspire me to create a new blog... And start (maybe restart) my journey as a blogger... Well, I will be writing a post per week, at least... Will decide a time for it later... Just to prevent complaints again... Hehe... Hope it can be a consistent work...

I am not a story writer like Joash... And I aint going to make my blog that personal... In the sense that I will try not to write so many things that only certain people can understand... Lolz... People complaining d... But yet I will still write in both languages... Just like the title of my blog... I am just hoping to express something, on my point of view, from time to time... But sometimes I guess I will still complain abit about my life... :-) Let it be...

In the mean time, wait and expect for my first post... Will slightly describe about my title... Ohh ya, one more thing, do not expect long post from a STPM-er... It will always cause disappointment... Hehe...