Words before leave (6) : CKL vs LXR@YPS

I am going to meet one of you the next day after I write this post... Guess it is inevitable since I will leave after that... So have to write now^^

I wouldn't say I am still very into debate now that I remember the debate memories, so only I remember you and Pui San... Without two of you realizing it, you two actually played a very important role in my life... I am making it perfectly honest before I leave... ^^

You two might not recall, but I remember very clearly that... Initially, I was half-forced-cum-half-volunteered to enter the debate team... I was nothing that time... Maybe worse than that... I was an irresponsible and utterly useless person, not only in the debate team, but all time (a merely useless kid that time)... I did nothing in the team, I contributed nothing, I was very not cooperative, and the list go on... While two of you, so passionate in debate activities, learning so fast, contributed so much, and the list go on... I was really thinking to "chao geok" only actually... Haha... No matter how hard you two wanted to teach me and all, nothing much changed I guess...

I forgot how long this situation lasted... I still remember Wan Yun left the debate team and I was given the chance to finally go on the stage... I really totally "beh"... I didn't even stand once after my own speech... This situation lasted for few matches I guess... (So i am pretty paiseh to scold juniors actually)

With such situation, we couldn't last long in the competition... We lost... I strongly believe that the lost-cause was me... Maybe I don't like to lose, maybe I can't stand girls crying... I vowed from the bottom of my heart that I will become a good debater, and a good person... I bet you all know the difference after this... Actually there are some hidden "dong li"... Haha... I was trying my best to improve to impress LXR de... Hehe... (I said perfectly honest! Haha...) That's one of the reasons I improve so fast... Haha... And another reason is I am genius lah... Haha...

After all that, I think one of the reasons I can become Deputy Head Prefect was due to the Champion in Chinese Debate... And I think I changed to be better... It is all thanks to two of you, I learnt so much from two of you... And two of you gave me the chance that nobody had... Thank you so much...

To LXR: Actually we didn't even discuss about that after you know that I liked you... Haha... That was a funny accident... I can't stop laughing whenever I think back... Hahaha... Now think back, maybe should ask you how you feel, it should be funny... I don't know about you... But I wouldn't say there weren't any change after that incident happened... At times, I really still think it affects our relationship... For instance, I will think twice if I really want to talk to you, to prevent your misunderstand... Haha... That was last time lah... Bet you were sibeh happy when you know I like other girls... Hahaha... So now it becomes funny memories... Hehe...

We might not be very in touch after everything... Since we are on different route... But undoubtedly, you are always one of my best friends... At times, I know things that I say might hurt you... I never apologized to you... I want to take this chance to do so... "Sorry"x100, really... And I really know at times you sacrifice alot of time to keep this friendship going... I really appreciate it... Thank you...

Wish you and your bf happy and sweet forever... I will attend your wedding, even if you forget to invite me, like how you forget my birthday... Haha...

To YPS: First thing to say, is sorry... Weird huh? I also never said sorry to you... I think I made you cry for so many times during debate times... I really feel "dui bu qi" you at times... You taught me alot... Maybe you didn't realize also... Haha... Thank you... I always enjoy to talk to you... We can blow sky blow earth... My blow water skills developed from here.. Hahaha...

I said this post is to be perfectly honest... I have a question I wanna ask since long time ago: I heard rumor from nowhere that you liked me before, is that true? Hahaha... I am wondering if it is true then the relationship in debate team must be very "luan sui" that time... Lolz... I guess we are so "sook", no "gu ji" to answer this question... Haha... (Can answer me personally... Haha...)

Very happy to know that you are enjoying your life in Japan... To go to Japan with your loved one must be a very joyful thing to you since love is so important to you... ^^ I really feel glad and proud for you... Hope you wont forget me this small small friend when you are in Japan... Hehe... All the best!